Steadfast Saturday

Today was a slightly interesting day. Several times today I was drawn back to this blog but i felt that it would be much better to recount the days events at night. I woke up today to the smell of fresh brownies that my mom baked, it made me quite happy. However, these brownies quickly turned into a source of discord in my house.
My mother (who did not give me any angst today) attempted to cut the brownies with a plastic knife, don't ask me why. She then thought a butter knife would be a better bet, that failed. She called my dad down to the kitchen and my dad, being the intelligent individual that he is went for the steak knife, which successfully cut the brownies. My mom then asked me dad for something and my dad is a very typical alpha male, he likes his football, beer, buffalo wings and cars, he doesnt know his way around the kitchen. My dad tried looking for the item that my mother wanted and couldn't find it....she SHRIEKED at him. This made me realize that it's not only me that she is completely and unfairly irrational with.
The rest of the afternoon was fairly uneventful. We went to my grandmothers, exchanged hannukah gifts, and then went to my aunt and uncles house for dinner. It was here where my day took a bit of a turn towards the eventful side.
My girlfriend started to get mad at me for something i had no idea about, i just completely did not understand why. The fact that i did not understand this alarmed me, i usually understand why she is mad at me, but this time i did not. Later she told me something that made me understand not about that particular incident but about her general mood for the day.
It was big news and it was not good. While i feel no need to go into the details about what happened, it is something that is a big deal to her and there are very very few things in this world, if any, that make her more upset. It scared me.
I panicked at the situation, I did not know what to tell her, I did not want her to spiral down the path that she had once spiraled down in this situation. All i knew was that i needed to be steadfast and support her. I told her this and for some reason it did not help.
I only had one thing left to do. Go see her and make things better in person. While nothing NEEDED to be reassured it was a reassuring feeling to know that with just my smile and presence i could completely turn what could have possibly been one of the worst days of her life into a seemingly ordinary or better day.
The issue she went through and almost had an encounter with today is something that completely disturbs and sickens me. I don't understand it. It makes me angry. It's almost insulting with her. She knows that I love her, and the fact that she wants to change is slightly insulting to me. But i understand that its not about me and that there are deeper problems that require nothing but my unwavering love and support, and thats what I intend to give her....for the rest of my life.


When life throws you lemons, make lemonade
Goodnight